Happy 1 Month Birthday Allie!

She is already one month! I can't believe it. This past month as flown by, which is a good thing. I would like any month without my Allie to just shoot by FAST! I have read many other adoption blogs where many of you have celebrated your baby's monthly birthdays and I have to say....so this is how it feels. It's only been one month since I have laid eyes on that beautiful face, but she is has been in my heart for much longer. I have been missing her so very badly lately. Especially since Mother's day. I didn't think I would feel the way I did. I mean, my first Mother's day, how exciting! It was, don't get me wrong, but I just had this bad pain in my heart. I can't even explain it. Only those who have been through it or are going through it could possibly understand. I hurt and long to be with Allie more than anything in this world. My schedule has been slammed the past few days, which is a good thing. The rest of the summer is going to be the same, but no matter how busy I get, she's always on my mind. Some days are better than others. I don't know how long this process will take, but God does and He is in control. I know that He is holding her, loving her, and taking care of her, even though I can't. His lovin' is the best!

Happy 1 month birthday, Allie Ana! Mommy loves you so much! Only 3 months and 14 days till you are in my arms!!

-Stacie